Amelie.
I had to be honest about it, though my outright honesty shocked even me somewhat, that my mind made itself up that quick; a point-blank "No."
Maybe its a blame on my part, my inability; how I clearly cannot hold my grasp onto them for long. How in the end, those two hours turn to one, and that one hour turn to minutes, slowly dissolving into seconds in which we squeeze obligations/courtesies into. How the deep-rooted fear has grown into something somewhat bigger, consuming all trust & confidence I've painstakingly rekindled. How trust.. when given too much, when the guards come down, when figuratively being able to dance nude around them in your own true skin; gradually deliqueces.
One hand is all I need, to count the number of those whom I've trusted so much as to actually show my weaknesses to. Weaknesses which burden, which taught me a cold hard lesson about trust, and giving less of it.
Give, take.. give.
But hey who knows, this time they could all turn out to be something different. :)
<3.
