Monday, May 14, 2007

i had one of those traumatising moments which left me shaken & played recurring scenes in my head over & over, like that time on 854 from Yishun, but nothing physically happened this time so i'm glad for that but OH MY, AM I FREAKED.

i was at the bus stop right, waiting for 15, all happily set to go to the library & mug. sat down next to this cheerful looking elderly man who smiled at me, the sweet grandfather kind of person.

out of nowhere, this other slightly elderly & what i assume to be slightly down-syndrome-ish man, stood infront of me, staring & smiling, all lustful.
mind you, his face was inches from mine when he did this, i felt so violated because no one even bothered to tell the man off.

next thing i knew, he shifted his eyes DOWN MY TANK TOP, and his smile grew wider & wider it made me sick, so i shoved my sweater to my chest & loudly said "what the fuck", hoping he'll go away.

well he did. but only to like, a pillar which was a metre away from me & HE STARTED LICKING AND SUCKING THE PILLAR, ALL THE WHILE STARING AT ME - if there was ever such a thing as making out with a pillar, i think this man invented it. & watching it from my peripheral vision & knowing the whole time that he was staring at me while sucking face with the pillar made me no less comfortable.

he finally stopped making out with the pillar and stood there, & i could feel his stare just penetrate me right through my skin, sending chills to the bones. i was freaked, no one was doing anything about it how fucking infuriating is that. NOT EVEN THE NICE LOOKING GRANDPA NEXT TO ME.

the bus 8 came, and though it wasn't my bus, i stood up anyway; i wasn't surprised when the man moved to get on the bus as well. i think he's homeless, the strength of his body odour overwhelmed me when he moved past me. he kept looking back to see if i was going to board as well, so i pretended to, but held back.

the doors closed when he was inside & i was safely still at the bus stop, HOW I WAS PRAYING FOR THE BUS TO MOVE ALREADY; HE WAS LOOKING AROUND HIM - PROBABLY FOR ME.

nothing had happened to me, thank God, but i was still slightly shaken & chilled & just traumatised. the pillar sucking scene kept replaying in my head while i was doing stats though i managed to finish almost all the questions.

i can still see his face, his expressions, his hunger.


FUCK, now i'm scared to even go to that bus stop so i have to drop a stop earlier & walk a longer way home.



i actually have a few photos, mainly camwhoring in class :D
but they're all in my lappie & i can't be bothered to transfer everything.


& i strongly dislike people who feed on the insecurities of others and make them feel like SHIT by abusing them with hurtful words about their appearance & physical outlook & such, and it sucks when they're your friends & you know they're trying to cover up their insecurities by brushing such matters off,
SO JUST GET THE FUCK AWAY & leave her alone.



eh argh, i'm supposed to do my project.

okay, bye. x