Tuesday, May 15, 2007

i'll break your heart-shaped glasses.



i wish you'd no longer weigh me down with your insecurities, making them mine instead and cursing me to live with the fear of not knowing or not feeling. i want to run far, to nowhere, and not hear your calls for me because by the time you'd notice, i'd have been already long gone.

it's not that i stopped loving you,
i just lost my respect and trust in you.

how can you tell me that everything's simply black & white when there are infinite shades of grey in between?


how can i say that i hate you, without actually using that word?


i changed the song sequence on the player because someone told me it was annoying. HAHA, yes i pause it immediately too when i go on my blog page so no worries there. though it takes a little longer to load.
changed it to Marilyn Manson's new single 'Heart-shaped glasses' from his new album Eat Me, Drink Me.

the video premiere can be found at his official site, click on the picture if you want to;



though please be warned that content is rated R21 - yes, it is REAL sex going on there.


i don't think it's a good single to release the album with though, because he has so much more to offer and this one's just a bit too mellow compared to his previous works, like Antichrist Superstar or Mobscene.

& i don't like Evan Rachel Woods, i much prefer Dita Von Teese. Manson matched better with Dita before, but he probably went slight pedophilic considering ERW is only 19 or 20.
and i think she's just trying to be a clone of DVT.


but if anyone manages to ship it in from the US cos i'm pretty sure the anal censorship board bans it here, tell me & i'll bargain a good one with ya.

or y'know. you can just give it to me as a present.


i feel so at peace with myself, i've done my part for the IT report and so far everything's going well so let's just hope that nothing screws up last minute, i don't want to have another sleepless night anytime in the near future unless it's really important and very worth it.


school's been good too, hey :D

my classmates have got to be the most hardworking people i've ever seen in my life, they spend after school hours in the library studying & doing tutorials & actually bothering to book research/discussion rooms for the correct purposes instead of just being enclosed within four walls making noise. keeps me motivated really, i love finding people who want to study & are willing to, which encourages me to sit my ass down & focus on doing work.

i told you, i want to start on a clean academic slate this time.


i found New Age listeners too! Eugene, someone who barely strikes me at that type considering he hums tunes of Britney & Nsync when he thinks no one's listening; and Aishah, with her all-black-except-sometimes-with-striking-green-shoes ensemble, hardly lets on that she listens to the likes of Lisa Ono & Pink Martini.


i haven't found that familiar warm sense of security being around most of my classmates yet - except a certain few - but i hope/am sure that it'll come round in due time, just like the last time it did and everything turned out alright.

besides, this time round, they're ALL a crazy bunch eh. :)














& THANK YOU SO MUCH to Shameen for lending me Tori Amos' new album! American Doll Posse; it's the shizz, i'm loving it.



i love how crude & honest Tori Amos is with her choice of words for lyric, eg.
"I am a M-I-L-F don't you forget/M-I-L-F don't you forget" from Big Wheel, like who the hell owns up to being a MILF, HAHAHA.

Tori Amos rocks, go go go & get the album.



school was blank today, just that i'm done with about all of my tutorials leaving me with not much to do for the rest of the week, so i'm happy about that :D

a good night's sleep to look forward to,

xx.

9:22 PM

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