i was in such a happy mood,
i hope you greatly notice the past tense there, because i no longer am in that state of elation where i think the world is spinning around just right & i've got both my feet on the ground.
i realised that i overlooked the shitload of instructions given for the IT ICA1, which is my fault in the first place cos i didn't come for the class so the instructions that everyone else told me was incredibly summarized to the point that i only understood we had to a powerpoint presentation & nothing else, by this Wednesday.
then i read again, & realised there's a written report due, with God knows how much information/resources/references that need to be stated, some of the stuff which i'd deleted because i didn't think i'd be using them anymore, & do you know how long i took to research on the stupid topic cos the scope is so wide and the search engines given were as useless as shit is useful to man. its anal, i tell you.
& then it hit me i still have to memorise my speech by Wednesday cos who knows hey, i could be one of the lucky ones to be called on Wednesday, if not Thursday, but by then i'd be damned annoyed at the fact that i have to wear smart office wear two days in a row so i'd probably have a high chance of screwing up if my mood is as such.
& i still have to catch up with Econs & Accounting tutorials/lectures, & read through the textbooks i'd bought which are collecting dust in one corner.
if i could, i want a huge ginormous scissors so i can cut my life into tiny minute pieces so i can settle them one by one by one by one.
it's only week 4. more ICAs & projects to come, yet i'm already feeling the heat & weariness now, probably cos i've been up editing slides & summarizing & overloading my brain with useless information that are of no use if it wasn't for the fact that i need to ace this project to make up for the stupid 8% i had stupidly fucked over 360 degrees.
if it wasn't for the 8%, i would be enjoying sleep right now.
i can't even wait for this week to be over, & enjoy large dosages of laughter without worrying about the time & whether i have anymore stuff due in the next two days.
maybe i'm the only one being too serious
but i just don't want to screw up another education line over again.
much ranting over, i am so
annoyed/pissed off/fucked over frustrated with myself.
let's hope for a better day tomorrow.
