love foolosophy.
omg my nose is running. AGAIN. i woke up an hour ago & had to snort in back all the... haha, never mind it's too visual. eww, gross. maybe i should really go to the doctor's & get my MC for last friday as well. HAHA. shit, if i don't attend 3 more classes of Oral Comm i'd be officially debarred from the exam.
Poly really isn't any less stressful than JC y'know. you have the extra problem of thinking what to wear the next day in school. & then you have to think about to wear for the whole WEEK. it really isn't as simple as slipping on some jeans & tshirt although i'd really love to do that. maybe i will, once i get cosied with the school. & no one gives a shit about how i look. haha.
& except maybe almost all JC people i know are too caught up in their PW shit. HAHA. then again, i've got all the ICAs coming up, especially that big fat one that's constantly floating around in my mind; the presentation for Oral Comm in two weeks, worth 50 marks. i don't even have a frickin' topic to talk about, & this is due in two weeks. i tried explaining to Miss Anne that my life has anything that's hardly been exciting for me to talk about, & then she said i could make anything up. how nice. my imagination really doesn't run that wild.
my self confidence is waning slowly but surely. yesterday i had to talk about myself - ONE MINUTE TO TALK ABOUT MYSELF, HOW EASY CAN THINGS GET? - & i the whole time i felt like i was gonna choke up & puke out the night before's dinner. & that was only infront of the class. & the whole thing was just damned off the top of my head, no script whatsoever.
& then the foreign bodies thing. i hate it that i'm so self conscious & give too much shit about what people think of me. like, i can literally hear the laughter bouncing off the walls in my head even if they're infront of me, clearly not laughing. i don't know. i need to settle certain issues 'else i'm gonna have a big problem with myself over the next few years.
okay i have to go shower. class starts at 2 but i'm having lunch with Nissa first! yay :D
& my nails aren't fire red-engine anymore cos i kept screwing that up.:(
let's hope tonight's gonna be filled with endless laughter, happy faces, genuine smiles & hold enough memories to fill ten years ahead:)
xx
